Just a few days ago, I received a SMS from JY, it was devastating.
I asked JY to help me ask Yunting if she does have any feelings for me like she used to have in STC. Yeah I met Yunting in STC, She's a nice girl, quite fun to be with. I facilitate a group together with her, it was also then i discovered her charms. She's cute, very cute and awesomely beautiful. I'm always distracted to her, and always wanted to look at her. Each look at her was so mesmerizing, I couldn't take my eyes off her. I wanted to stare at her for a while longer, but she caught me looking at her, the awkward feeling comes. Guess all these feelings made me realized that I'm in love with her. Well, I do even dream of her sometimes, had a sweet beautiful dream that I was Spending my world and time with her in this lonely quiet outskirts of town with beautiful scenery, Just a wonderland paradise. I'll play with her, and when night comes, I'll star gaze with her in this treehouse, under those brightly shining stars in the velvet sky.
Well all these aren't coming true for me i guess.. JY told me that Yunting doesn't like me anymore after since STC. And maybe that's the reason why she's starting to ignoring my messages. Before she'll always send me smses with smiley faces on it, but now she just ignored me.. guess I really don't have any hope anymore.. Whenever I think of her, in fact everyday all the time, my heart will have this special fast-heart pumping feeling.. She just still can't forget her Ex, which also means she still likes him. So that just add up to the impossibility of Yunting & Me together. I think even if she doesn't like her ex anymore, she won't even like me, i don't know why but i have this feeling... I like her too much till I can't forget about her now. I'm not giving her up, I'll like her always, but on the same time, I'm not going to like any other people now. I've decided, after my love for Yunting, I want to be a bachelor, staying single all my life. Loving somebody else doesn't feel good, especially when you heard that the person you like doesn't like you, it's like an heart attack, it pierces through your heart so deep that it hurts. I don't like this feeling obviously, but I still like Yunting.
How great will it be if Yunting accepted my confession, and both of us go into a relationship? I'll always protect her, and always be in my sweet dreams. Yunting, My love forever...
Guess now i just have to get over her. Just when i thought she'll be the one who will take up the lonely and empty space in my heart...
